moving.

there's something that you need to know about me.
i’m a settle down get comfortable kind of gal.

i've built roots, you know?

it may be a strange, fun fact to know about me... but just so you know who i am and why this is such a big deal: but i’ve lived in the same house my entire life.

shocking i know.

but as i’ve said: i’ve built roots.

moving away from the familiarity that has only lasted about oh yeah... about my entire life... is a tad bit nerve wracking to say the least.

so there’s that factor that me, at thirty, have had the familiarity of the same surroundings for my entire life.

let’s talk about that for a second... all my tear stained pillows... have been here.
all my high school grade parties i threw were at this party house.
all life's biggest decisions made in that same oh so coveted circle chair.
that shower that hosted all of my lifetime's greatest ideas and put up with my horrible singing from my first aqua cd to today's one direction.

throughout all life's highs and lows these walls have kept my secrets, the halls tell the story of my life and these doors have lead me in and out of all my most precious memories.

my bedroom is my sanctuary, i've travelled around the world and back many a times. but my comfort remained i rested assured that my room remained my room and that comfort wrapped around me throughout everything.

you, see, i’ve built roots.

but roots are there in order for a flower to flourish.
as my lady friend m.m. says “if the bones are good, the rest don’t matter.”
i've built a foundation on solid ground.
my friends, family & support network are incredible.
they’ve got my back.
it’s time to take off and blossom.
the roots run deep.
they’ve taken a firm grip.
so it’s time for me to take off, take flight & fly!!

i leave my family home today; the home of my childhood. it seems like i’m being thrusted into adulthood, smashed into new ways of living and colliding with fate.

i remember all the great things that this house taught me.
how to be a leader; emulated by the adults in my life.
in this house i was taught how to love and be loved.
how to gather together and surround each other with compassion & trust.
it was in this house i learnt how to believe, have faith & what the word family truly means.
hope was both lost & found.
between these walls i became the woman i am today.

so as i pick up and begin to root my life in another way.
i cry & miss home immensely already!
but i know i leave for something new.
i cannot say i am not afraid, but i can say i am so excited to see what the future has in store.



hey mama!! i’m a big kid now!!